"I want to be someone who walks the streets with the hands in their pockets, smiling at people. I want to go to a little café on my own and read a book. I want to take photos of strangers I meet. I want to sit in the park and write poems about the leaves changing the way we do. I want to watch raindrops falling and children playing. Even if it only lasts for a minute, I want to be the reason for someone’s eyes to light up. I don’t have to be someone important; I just want to be someone.
Instead, I’ll keep on sitting at my window, spinning stories in my head and reminding myself how to breathe right."
"Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could."
Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum LP (via observando)